What am I doing here?

I made my website several years ago with the goal to generate demand for my freelance work. I can unequivocally tell you that it absolutely failed at that—I failed at promoting it in any useful capacity. Turns out that if you don’t tell people about your website, they won’t come to it. I don’t know what I’m doing here.

Between my domain and hosting costs, it’s about $120 to keep the lights on, and at this point, I mostly use it for access to my email, which I’ve now used to sign up for lots of things and can’t be bothered to change all of those accounts over to a free service. Oops.

As my domain renewal draws nearer, I find that I can’t bear to have a website that is just a drain on my finances, but I also don’t want to lose access to my important emails (and the flex of having a custom email address), so I’m looking for a solution, but I don’t know what I’m doing here.

My solution right now? Do anything and everything. This is my space, and no one is watching. I can say… whatever I want, and no one can stop me. Do I want to write about games, movies, annoying YouTubers, and the nihilistic thoughts that force me to always keep an earbud in with a podcast playing at 100% volume? Of course, and there’s nothing you can do to stop me. You really should stop me though—I don’t know what I’m doing here.

If I’m going to scream into the void, at least I can scream into my own little $120-a-year corner. Who knows, maybe someone will notice that I’m screaming. Maybe they’ll start screaming too.

What does this mean for my website? I’ll be changing some things and removing some pages (not like you would have noticed based on my analytics). I might even make a blog post more than once every few years!

I hope you have some fun this week. If you feel like you don’t know what you’re doing, it’s okay. I don’t know what I’m doing here either.